Isn’t it amazing what sunshine can do for the soul? For mood? It’s “warmed up” to the 30s today, but wow! I am high on the promise of spring. It’s been such a rough winter, and the never ending crap weather does not help with my depression. Add on all the stuff I have going on, and it’s been a roughie for me. I feel like I’m just throwing depressed babble out there, but really, I am doing the best I can to stay positive and keep my head up right now.
I just made the extremely difficult decision to cut someone out of my life. This is the person that has drug me through the emotional ringer for the past two weeks. They became my go-to confidant the past eight months after my car accident. We’ve been in almost constant contact since last June, and without him, I am floundering. There is a huge void now, and I know that only I can fill that void inside of me. I know he didn’t mean to hurt me, but he did and the pain is unbearable. I tried to keep in contact, but today I told him I can’t do it any longer. The anger is eating me alive. So we had a conversation, and since then, I’ve blocked and deleted him from various social networking sites. It hurts and I miss him like crazy, but it’s for the best.